Then came the next day.
The trigger. I knew “the trigger” and followed the little white rabbit. I actually was feeling momentum with 53 days under my belt and now I feel like I am digging my way out of the hole again.
I am going to get this and try a new way. I am going to order the e cigarette and not have any nicotine included with it. I think for me, it is the hand to mouth action. (Asthma=Inhaler=Relief, Drinking=Smoking=Relax, Tom Petty = Marijuana= Amazing) I will have this for back up. Camping is coming. I need something around those campfires.
I went running today and cursed myself the whole time. I felt it all in my chest and I think I was blowing out the extra smoke in my lungs from Saturday night. It sucked. I did it but it sucked and I really don’t want to be there again. I washed all my naughty clothes, aired out the garage. Back on the wagon. I learned from this and here is to Day 2. Again.